Corrupted Dreams

Author: Amelia Victrix

  • Click

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    Click Hi Diary, Hi and hello.Sorry that I left you in such a state, I even let my hosting lapse so I had to do quite a bit of work to get everything back to the way it was. Quite cumbersome. It’s been quite some time and I have….changed in so many ways, yet in…

  • Axiom

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    There was a draft that I had started when I fully intended on writing about a week ago.That draft was only a sentence which to me indicates that the feeling I had never overcame the burden of the act of writing. This feeling is not unique to typing, often times I feel this to an…

  • A Breath

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    Consider this an interlude I made a solid breakthrough. Finally, a long time coming. The last few weeks I’ve been on an alternate path. Expressing myself in the tangible, focusing on something that wasn’t my focus. I reached my maximum capacity for projects, felt that challenging spark and overcame. A real win. A statement that…

  • Bodies on the beach

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    With her last breath she lifted the body up onto the bleached rocks. Her scarred ghost-white body making a light smack as it hit the sand. She had known that it was going on for too long, that the wounds were lethal. Even still, she wanted it to end this way, she wanted her last…

  • 3/1/2023 Afraid of the Night Sky

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    Hey Diary,Sorry this entry’s dour, so shortly after the last one too.Honestly, it’s just that I’m so, down, and up, and up.Seems like even my gas lasts only a few days to just stay in one version of myself, kinda can’t help but think I’m falling apart at the seams. I wish I could get…

  • Diary 2/16/23

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    Hi diary, guess it’s about that time yeah? I’ve been told I should write this week, to take time to do something I want. It’s all falling apart, it all feels fucked and I’m so frustrated, I’m so angry, I’m so irritable the more I speak the less I feel the rawness and it just…

  • Self Fulfilling Prophecies

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    Hey Diary,Right now you’re just about the only person I want to talk about this with but man I’m really fucking going through it, everything should be fine but it’s not and I can’t help but be angry for it. I have no release, I feel angry, I have unresolved emotions and want to lash…

  • scrapped post, Jan 2023

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    Hi Diary,Suppose I’m probably overdue.I usually was doing pretty good at being on-track, once a month vents here kinda made sense, actually I think I was at my best when it was once every two weeks. It’s been cold lately. Really cold. This is probably the coldest I’ve ever felt living here. While I do…

  • The Big Bang

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    Ultimately the irony doesn’t escape me. I think now is the point when I’ve felt like I’m able to control things more. For such a long time I was tied to the notions that I reacted to stimuli, rather than control my self. I think I did this because of fear and also because I…

  • Diary – The Promises we forgot 11/6/2022

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    Hi Diary,Frankly, I just don’t know where I want to go with this writing today. Usually I don’t, I just know that you’re kind of my like….you’re the place I go when everything is fucked or everything is okay. I’m not okay diary. I’m really really not, It’s all a brain stew of problems and…